It was the most glorious of days, one January 24th, 2015. I had begrudgingly agreed to go fishing with my brown eyed boy, never once questioning why we would be fishing from shore in the middle of winter (on a river mind you). So he picked me up in my red hunter boots and still-wet hair and we walked towards the Mississippi river in the backyard of my parent’s home.
As we got closer to the river, he stopped on the wooden bridge that I had told him so many times would be the perfect spot to get married. “I think this is a good spot?” he said as he looked at me. It took me what seemed like hours to wrap my head around what was happening. I heard the click of a camera shutter behind me as the love of my life got down on one knee and poured out his heart. It was magic, and I still get butterflies when I play it back in my mind.
Such joy has filled my heart this past year because of this man. I didn’t know it was possible to love –and be loved– by someone this much. I’m over the moon to be planning what will be the most special day of our lives, but I’m more enthralled by the fact that I get to do life with my best friend by my side. We get to raise babies in a home that knows the Lord. We get to be adventurers and encouragers of each other’s dreams.
I’ve heard people talk about how marriage helps you gain perspective on God’s love for you, but I didn’t really believe it until I felt it myself. There are nights when Taylor drives over to my house after a 14-hour work day and falls asleep in my arms on the couch. I look at him and my heart feels like it might explode. Incomprehensible love has taken over my heart, and I am a different person because of it. I have this sense of thankfulness that I’ve never felt towards God, like he has given me the greatest gift that I didn’t even know I needed. I realize now the anxious thoughts that once filled my head (still have them, they just look different now) about finding the man God had for me were so silly — He had it figured out a long time ago.
So I encourage you if you find yourself in the boat that I was in for a long time– surrender your heart to the Lord. He has things in store for you that you can’t even begin to imagine.